Hello thank you for granting my friend Chong Kim yet another outlet to expose human exploitation by way of sharing her personal survival story. While many of the intricate details are very much similar there are also differences. In my case, I was born into a mafia family severely abused emotionally,physically,mentally,spiritually/rituallistically; prostituted,endured incest and was used as a maid and nanny of my own siblings. All this took place in my childhood home under the "care" of my own biological parents.
A youth pastor from out of town gave me the ability to speak by introducing me to acting my emotions had release and by scheduling me engagements to tell the public my story I gained the sence of empowerment. Still to this day as an advocate my efforts to help educate the public and helping people leave organized crime and exploitation and/or abuse over the past 25+ years are my own battle against the monster that still haunts me...and my offspring.
As a child I was expected and obediently enacted the undiscussable. My body serviced the whims nightmarish fantisies of countless adults who proved to be monsters in human form. Then in the morning I went to school if it was a school day. On weekends I was taken to make visits.
Gratefully there is so much that I don't remember. As obedient my body might have been for survival sake my mind and soul chose to rebel by not remembering somethings,blacking out at times and forming other personalities. I turned on myself attempting suicide, cutting and attempting to run away. It took me years to let these survival tools go. My search for the resources to gain the empowerment to live led me into helping others in addition to telling my story publically.
It has been nearly 26 years since I have been so viciously used and I still search daily for resources to help now not only myself and other survivors but our offspring and spouses as well. That is how I came across Chong. She has been a great friend; someone I can vent to and express ideas. Also as a fellow survivor-advocate I understand the great personal battle that one endures almost everytime if not everytime one shares his or her story, then the scrutany that takes place as well as the personal "fall out" with friends, family and others we hold dear but have not dealt with their involvement or emotions. For most of us a safe sense of family and family acceptance is a fantsy.
As grateful as I am to non-survivor actvists for their efforts,sacrifice, encounters and accomplishments fighting against what is now human trafficking...when a fellow survivor/survivor activist is given a voice of opportunity to share his or her story of surving the depths of hell it is then hope is restored that we may one day be free from the appetites of this hellish beast which is currently called "Human Trafficking".
Thank you for the opportunity to express my thoughts.
Michelle Carmela
Http://www.onceuponaneden2.weebly.com
A youth pastor from out of town gave me the ability to speak by introducing me to acting my emotions had release and by scheduling me engagements to tell the public my story I gained the sence of empowerment. Still to this day as an advocate my efforts to help educate the public and helping people leave organized crime and exploitation and/or abuse over the past 25+ years are my own battle against the monster that still haunts me...and my offspring.
As a child I was expected and obediently enacted the undiscussable. My body serviced the whims nightmarish fantisies of countless adults who proved to be monsters in human form. Then in the morning I went to school if it was a school day. On weekends I was taken to make visits.
Gratefully there is so much that I don't remember. As obedient my body might have been for survival sake my mind and soul chose to rebel by not remembering somethings,blacking out at times and forming other personalities. I turned on myself attempting suicide, cutting and attempting to run away. It took me years to let these survival tools go. My search for the resources to gain the empowerment to live led me into helping others in addition to telling my story publically.
It has been nearly 26 years since I have been so viciously used and I still search daily for resources to help now not only myself and other survivors but our offspring and spouses as well. That is how I came across Chong. She has been a great friend; someone I can vent to and express ideas. Also as a fellow survivor-advocate I understand the great personal battle that one endures almost everytime if not everytime one shares his or her story, then the scrutany that takes place as well as the personal "fall out" with friends, family and others we hold dear but have not dealt with their involvement or emotions. For most of us a safe sense of family and family acceptance is a fantsy.
As grateful as I am to non-survivor actvists for their efforts,sacrifice, encounters and accomplishments fighting against what is now human trafficking...when a fellow survivor/survivor activist is given a voice of opportunity to share his or her story of surving the depths of hell it is then hope is restored that we may one day be free from the appetites of this hellish beast which is currently called "Human Trafficking".
Thank you for the opportunity to express my thoughts.
Michelle Carmela
Http://www.onceuponaneden2.weebly.com
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